I put my phone on airplane mode and upside down as I am writing this. Recently, I have had lots of time to focus on my self, to make myself a priority and even that; a top one in the list of priorities. And I have to say’ it feels great. Not having to sacrifice my time and not having to prioritise others before me. I feel like I am in the possession of high power. I can use my whole day as per my choice, I can either go for a run, walk alone to the neighbourhood park and watch sun set alone. It’s when this feeling started to daunt on me. The feeling of loneliness and how solitary has its own way of making you realise that you are indeed by yourself in this world.
Like we say so often, ‘there are two sides to the same coin’. I guess its the same with life. You make decisions depending on your current thoughts and current situations but these decisions that you make have consequences. Just because you feel low sometimes because of that consequences doesn’t mean you chose a wrong path. It only means that you are only seeing one side of the coin; meaning one part of the life.
For someone who has barely had any closure with her own realities, for someone who is always hesitant when it comes to confrontation, it’s unusual for me to talk about self-healing. However, I am also that someone who has spent hours and hours every day and night thinking about the time and the ways I will find my closure. And I am proud to say that this year I took one step forward to finding it.
I can give you the list of top ten things you can do to find the elements of healing. But we all perceive self-healing differently. For me self-healing is being aware of my current situation even though its sad, rough and complicated to handle with. Awareness is always a step forward into realising the situation you are in; which will only have the power to allow yourself to emerge into something new or evolve from it. Self-healing can come in forms of writing your thoughts, reading a self help book, talking to your closest friend in non-critical environment or being on the suicide help line talking to complete strangers and expecting them to talk you out of it.
As long as you are aware, as long as you know yourself, as long as you are familiar with your inner self, its always a step forward into healing. No matter what pain you went through, the extremities of the pain and the after shock, as long as you know you are in pain; its more than enough to get you out of it.
Today we will either ignore our inner thoughts and inner self and rely on the thoughts molded by others and fake our inner persona, or we will simply just familiarise ourself with our inner calling.
Just remember, you are only an step away from healing.